I have had it up to the sky with pink eye. The kids and Tyrell keeping getting and my house permanently smells of bleach. Most of the toys are bleached and bagged and have been for 2 weeks. The others I clean over and over. I have even done the car. You'd think we'd be done, but we aren't. When will this end?
Well, the waiting is over. I didn't get either job. It's rough. I think I have only ever interviewed and not got the job once in my life. This is a whole a new ball game. I know I have to pick myself up, dust off, and try again. It's frustrating and depressing because I can't even count the applications I have filled out anymore or the hours I have spent revising my documents and researching possible interview questions so I can prepare possible answers ahead of time. I have even gone so far as to have the teacher and principal I student taught under read and offer advice on my documents. It's just very competitive right now, and I have little experience. I want to give up, but that's not something I am willing to do right now. I have invested too much in this. I just haven't found the right school yet, and whose to say that one of the many open positions my application is in a pile for won't interview me? I just need to stay positive. I can and will do this!
It all started last night, when poor Koen comes to be complaining of a tummy ache. He said his stomach hurt really bad. He wouldn't eat dinner, but said he felt better later. He never threw up, but had the other problem associated with stomach pain. We have just gotten over a 2 week stretch of pink eye. This is the last thing I want to deal with now. By morning he was fine to head to school. He never had a fever and he said he felt better so off he went. I began the morning feeling "funny" and brushed it off saying I hadn't eaten. I tried some cereal then decided I should get busy. I vacuumed the whole house before Bam! It hit like a ton of bricks. All the sudden I was overcome with nausea and this fatigue. I laid down on the couch and started getting the chills. Before long, I knew I was going to have to hide from my kids or I was going to loose it everywhere. Not a good day! Luckily Tyrell came home on prep (which happens to be around lunch time) and fed them lunch. They had gotten into the Popsicles and eaten the entire bag, but I knew they had some. I just felt too crappy to care. After lunch, I got the two little ones down for nap and started resting myself. I thought for sure it was smooth sailing from then to 4 when Tyrell would show up and be my knight in shining armor. Unfortunately, they woke up around 2 and my condition had worsened. Havyn had peed her bed (probably from all the Popsicles) and Kael was raging mad. Of course they wanted me to get up and fill their cups and fix a snack. I honestly didn't think I could make it down the stairs without throwing up, but I did! I gave the each a drink and waited for Koen to knock on the door around 2:30. He knocked and knocked and rang the bell. That's how slow I was moving so I wouldn't loose it. Once inside, I begged for his help with the little kids and asked him to please get them a snack. He is such a good big brother because he got out the chips and gave each if them a "little" snack, as he tells me and when Kael brought me his cup as I was hovering over the toilet and asked for juice I said go ask Koen, mommy can't. Koen got him juice and the other kids too. I am going to have to take him for a treat when these horrible stomach cramps cease. As for right now, I haven't eaten much, just Popsicles and ice chips. I don't dare! I am still laying still in bed because when I move it gets worse. I believe Tyrell ordered pizza for dinner, and is letting the kids play outside. I am just so grateful that somehow we made it through this awful day, and I have such great boys to help me. I am praying this passes by morning.
Then, I made a sign for a bridal shower I am going to on Saturday.
I can't figure out how to rotate this picture, but you get the idea.I still haven't heard from either school I interviewed at last week. Yes, I am going crazy! They both said they'd call either way. I know neither position has been hired because of job postings. I am hoping to hear very soon. I have never been the most patient person when it comes to these things.
